Rayon Rashid

Test Shoot

Going Thru

no hope left, compassion dried up

i won't wait for your call

i need some sleep

have things to do tomorrow

you were never the light to my darkness

even though i cried and begged

nothing seems to move thy heart

i needed you to rescue me

my life needed a special something

not your cruel urging things

i use to want to see your everyday

eve though i was aware you were unfaithful

my heart still stayed faithful

it still loved and cared

it was ready to open up, to share

but you where never here, never there

where were you? in someone else's nest

now i'm a boy with too much misery

my love life is cold without you

again then its eerier if i let you go

you never had any good intentions for us

you never even notice the little things i do to make you happy

i can't keep up with these attitudes, lies and crooked emotions

i'm trying to cope with it but i've ran out of time, out of patience, out of love

i've cried so many nights, hold my pillow tight, tired of being alone

i'm just a ghost in your heart, i'm just another fling

well i want to be recognised, i want to be loved

and something call reality says you not the one

Is it alright

If I should say to you

That I don't mind, loving you

Then am afraid of hurting you

But my heart keeps crawling toward u

It's falling in love with you

Maybe this crazy feeling

Has a sliver lining

A happy ending

Or am I dreaming

But baby I believe my feelings are real

Well my heart is brave enough to say

I just want you to open up

Let me in, in to you inner most depths

And I promise to take control of you

And fill your emptiness with loving

Its Me

i live with hopes and aims for my future
not with regrets and blames of failure
i'll do my best today
and learn from yesterday
I'll bow down to pray
To God to make me a way
Out of my darkest days
I'll set myself goals and piorities
accept life and its responsibilties
maintain relationships and live with humility
seek after quality and not decieving quantity
I'll listen to the will of my heart
Not struggle to go back and forth
I'm tired of wanting and searching
I'll start all over,first by listening and learning
I'll love myself
I'll trust myself
I'll accept myself
I'll be honest to myself
Deep down my will is good
Its been my souls food
Since the days of my childhood
Now I'll be there for myself
set myself free from unhealthy desires
No more seeking happiness in someone else.

Golden Rayon

Golden Rayon

Love gone Wrong

Her love is so dark
All because of her ex jack
He cheated behind her back
Now she has a love fright
Looking sour and sexy
She would go out at night
Walking under the moon and street light
Hoping that she might
find her Mr. right
But she never had delight
With the ones on her sight
Looking in the mirror
She felt inferior
With all her efforts
She received no comforts
She was sick and sad
Coz life’s seems so hard
And it's driving her mad